Today……………I realised that I am what ever my mind perceives. I have been aware of this thought process for some time although for some reason it only really just hit me today.
I may be perceived to be living my life a certain way by others which in reality doesnt matter…what matters is how I perceive me and my life.
I think for some time now I have judged myself by other peoples standards and perceptions, particularly societies expectations.
It doesnt seem to matter how much older I get or how much experience I clock up, I realise I still have so much to learn….or do I?
Maybe all I need to know is what I know already, maybe I just need to refine it….am I going around in circles?
I feel I have come back to basics…..yet with a calmer acceptance of the simple things in life. I feel I have been rushing around trying to find what ever it is I am searching for….happiness? and that I have been pushing and forcing things to happen which propel me into more experiences of drama and learning. It can be quire exhausting! 🙂
Here I am again, I feel, at the beginning in a way, yet, I feel more accepting of ‘me’ and my situation.
I have realised that yes I am free to do what ever I want and go where ever I want and I am also free ‘just to be’. If I stop, sit and rest and allow ‘life’ to happen, if I am ‘happy’ with who I am and where I am then I will attract exactly what ever it is I want or need.
I have learnt that I actually just want to create ‘a home’ for myself, at least that is what I want in this moment….and that is the only place I can be at any given time….’is in this moment’. To be aware of who I am, what I want and then create it is ‘freedom’.
It is the simple things in life that give me the most pleasure.
So for now, I am going to stop, smell the roses and create ‘my space’ 🙂