you're reading...

Have you every wondered why you are here?

I do, all the time.  I keep waiting to be beamed up………..still waiting.

Just when you think you have had all the lessons and surprises in life….bam!  another comes your way.  At least it does for me.  I think I constantly challenge life.  I guess I would be bored if I didn’t.  I have had some doozy lessons in my life and I am not sure that I have learnt from them, I hope I have so I don’t have to repeat them.

I feel one of my big lessons is “Trust”.  Not just trusting others, myself included.  Funny thing is I always say I don’t trust anyone including myself.  We are forever changing creatures and in one moment we can promise everything and in the next we change our minds and hearts.  I don’t think it is intentional, I just think it happens as life happens.

I have certainly had some big lessons of trust in my life and still having them.  I am just learning to let go and let God as they say and go with the flow (my Mum loves that one :))  I find when I laugh about life it doesn’t seem to matter as much and I laugh at myself a lot!

I am always hopeful of that other saying “when one door slams shut…another door opens”.  Love it!

So are we here to learn or ‘fit in”?  I don’t do the ‘norm’ usually, and everyone seems to think that is what gives me life’s greatest challenges such as relationships and financial situations.  I am a creature of change, creativity and fun.

I tried to help my sister once by working a day with her on an apricot farm.  I nearly went MAD!  No one talked, everyone was robotic and the monotony  nearly drove me insane!  I started talking and she kept hushing me so I started singing and laughing.  She eventually started laughing and we both left.

Another time I went to work and I sat at my computer and just started crying out of complete desperation. I hadn’t been enjoying my 9 to 5 job for sometime and found it very stressful.  It was not in alignment with what my heart wanted.  My head said I had to work (which I do) and my heart said this was not for me.

I have tried ever since to find a job that resonates with me.  I am still looking.


About Jataia

I am a very spiritual person that is deep and light at the same time :) I am here for a purpose like most of us and am finding this journey very interesting indeed. I love to create, I paint, capture the beauty of mother nature with the camera, sing, dance and love to laugh (very loud) :)


No comments yet.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: